Me! I need sleep! Sadly though, I’ve been having some restless nights lately. And it has been lamesauce.
It’s actually become right bothersome, because it’s been like weeks since I’ve gotten a good nights rest. Right now, I’m running on days of only 3 or 4 hours of sleep at night and I’m not nearly as tired as I should be. I’m actually exhausted mentally & physically but when I go to lay my lovely red head on my pillow, I end up laying there for hours, either watching old Real Housewives episodes (Before you judge me, I know. I happen to love that show though.) or else I’m thinking about how I can make Jurassic Park a reality one day. Either way, I’m not sleeping. I simply can’t.
The last few weeks, I’ve been in the Calgary area visiting family. I’m wondering if that has something to do with it. Maybe I’m missing Mike too much? Maybe I really do need him next to me, to sleep well. If that’s the case, then that means we’re one of those couples, that need to be cuddling next to each other to sleep sound. Eh. Sickening. (Also, cute. Sickeningly cute.)
Or maybe it’s stress! Stress does conquer all, after all. Or is that love? I always get the two confused… Or maybe I’m burning myself out? My parents live next to a beautiful and huge provincial park, so everyday I’ve been here I’ve gone running at least twice a day and taken Vienna, my puppy, out for walkies a couple times a day as well. Add that with the lack of appetite, no sleep, plus everything else going on and you get a girl who is exhausted in every single way. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally.
There’s a spot I stop at every time I’m on my daily runs in the park though that always seems to recharge me. Even though it’s just for a few minutes. It’s up a huge flight of wooden stairs, on top of a cliff and it overlooks a beautiful river and all of the tree tops. It’s my little place of, clarity. I stop there every time, pause my iPod (even if it’s a rockin’ classic rock ballad) and just think. Or sometimes I don’t think. Really depends on the day I’m having. But whatever I’m doing, at least for those few moments, I have total peace. It’s almost like meditation in a way. And I love those few moments, on top of that lovely cliff.
I hope all of you have a place like that. A place where you can go to recharge and gain some peace.